Im Engaged!!!!

Alan proposed last night!!! I had gone to bed, early..as usual when i have to work at 7, i need my 8 hours....anyway, i sleep with a mask on. I do not like light when im sleeping. He came in and put the light on and just sat beside me on the bed and was kissing me, my forhead..cheak , little light kisses. I was teasing him to just shut off the light and he said he couldn't, so i pushed up my mask and there was a ring, right there, he was on his knee beside the bed and said "Sabrina, will you marry me?" This part is pure me....when i saw the ring , just before he asked, all i said was "holy crap!" completely suprised me. Which is cool cause I knew it was coming but i really wanted to be suprised. Then of course i couldnt' sleep. Im so going to bed soon.

My ring is georgeous, He picked it out all by himself. I wanted that to be a suprise too. Seriously , im all grins today.

I called my mom right after, she was very happy, i could hear my dad in the background say "finally!'" Apparently Al had called him in June when we were at Sherkston and asked his permission so they've just been waiting to hear since then.

YAY!! im so excited!!! We're going to get married next september or October.

thoughts from a spastic person

I just ate half a small jar of pickles. Gerkins. mmmmm

do you have any idea how hard it is to wax your own eyebrows? I do. It' s hard. I think i'll just cave and pay next time. Good news is i still have both eyebrows.

Lately i've been afraid of something. Everytime the phone rings and it's my mom I panic. Im afraid it'll be bad news about Grandpa. He went back into the hospital after Angela's stag and doe in June. Some sort of infection. He's weak as it is, we visited him for an hour or so the next day, the day before he went back into the hospital and he was almost falling asleep in his chair. It's hard to see him like that. But he's already lived longer than the dr's gave him when he was diagnosed in November. Grandma (grandpa's wife) was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer in Nov of 93 and passed away Apr 94. that quick. Grandpa's is worse, more spread out, plus the tumors.

I don't know if it's good or not but i block it out. I dont' want to think of it. I coudlnt' even make it through the first half hour of The Bucket List because of this. In fact i dont' believe i will ever be able to watch that movie.

Monday sucks

Talk about dreaming in color, i drempt about those stupid vaccume seal bags. Yup, all night long. I was more tired waking up than i was when i went to bed. Then i get to work and all the crankiest early morning customers were at their finest miserableness. I was ready to quit, then i had break and it seemed to get better. Talk about a day of weird situations though, im talking real thinkers. I hate outsourcers, they just mess up accounts and then I get yelled at because of their incompentencies. Idiots. the good news is i got a customer commendation from an elderly lady i set up with services last week, so that cheered me up. There are a few people out there who actually appreciate us despite our faults. It's always nice to be appreciated.

reminds me of the song they play on the radio...to the mickey mouse theme song..

What's the worst day of the week that gets you all depressed..M-O-N-D-A-Y-S-U-C-K-S

monday sucks, monday sucks forever will it make you want to cry...so come along and sing this song and join with all the rest..M-O-N-D-A-Y-S-U-C-K-S

Amazing

Since moving, we're pretty much organized but there's still some stuff in boxes. Al's Aunt gave us a standup "pantry" for in the kitchen, so i get my bookshelf back. I just unpacked about 4 boxes of books, and there's still 3 boxes under my bed. It's not like we read alot anyway. Neither of us realized how much stuff we had untill moving here. It's all good though, slowly we're getting rid of stuff....(we have 9 Pans) . I dont' think we'll be here longer than 2 years though, I can definately see getting a house within the next few years. Untill then , we make do. So i went to Walmart this morning and bought one of those vaccume seal bags for storage. The box came with a Large and an Extra Large bag. Ive filled the large one with most of my winter clothes, and the Jumbo one has 2 king size comforters, about 10 towels (extra's) and 2 sets of sheets, and some other stuff. I LOVE THIS BAG. Im so getting another one or two , we've got some winter jackets that could be sucked airless and give us even more room! I think this is my new favorite thing!

One thing , when we DO get a house, it HAS to have a big kitchen. Cause I got ALOT of kitchen crap. ALOT. I have almost everything you would want for a normal residential kitchen, Digital rice cooker, Large Crock Pot, Blender, George Foreman, Kettle, etc, not to mention all our baking stuff, i think we have like 6 cookie sheets. Oh and the dishes...my word have we got dishes. WE have about 4 full sets of dishes in the cupboard. Hoping when Mike , Al's old roommate, and his girlfriend Kera get back from BC that they'll need dishes and pots and pans and stuff. Mike is Sean's (Rachel's boyfriend) brother. He and Kera are both early 20's, and took the opportunity to work at a resort out West for the summer. I miss them! I used to see both of them all the time before Me and Al moved.

Mom called last night, i could tell by the sound of her voice something was wrong. At first I thought it was Grandpa, but she didn't sound upset like someone died. It was my grandma's 80th birthday yesterday (my dad's mom), and they were all at family's place having a party when She had an Epileptic Seizure. She's in the hospital now, they want to know exactly why it happened. I think they're gonna put her in a Nursing home, apparently she's brought it up before this way she's not alone. If she had been alone when this happened.....it wouldn't have been good. Im not sure how i feel. I mean , i love my grandma, but we've never been close. First there's the language barrier, my grandma only speaks french. Plus the distance...when i was younger we'd visit every year for a week, even when we moved there to quebec she was still close to 3 hours away. I love my grandma but it's not hitting me as hard as Grandpa Kelley's health hit me. Im probably horrible for saying that, but something is to be said for closeness.

It's my cousins wedding in St Thomas on saturday. Still gotta her her a gift. She's marrying a really nice guy , Mike...I can't understand a word the guys says. He's Jamaican and his accent is so thick and he sorta mumbles. Should be interesting lol.

Making Steak Fajjita's for dinner tonight...my mouth is watering. oh and did i mention BB10 is on now?

early morning thoughts

Well, i spent alot of time yesterday looking online at Alfred Angelo's site, and I know what style of wedding dress i want . I think i'll let Sharon and Rachel pick their outfit, with the exception of a few details the dress has to have. I want to get married next year, October or the end of September. Most likely October, since the colors are dark, that'd probably be the best time to not die of heat. Al's kilt will be dark navy blue, and i want those colors in my dress as well. I think that when the time comes i'll go over to Buffalo to Davids Bridal and see what they got there and bring it back here for alterations. That's where Sharon got her dress so we'll see what ends up to be cheaper.

No, im not engaged yet, but im thinking it'll happen soon. I stumbled upon a hidden little box in his drawyer the other day....little tiny velvet box...that and other hints point to a question being popped soon.....not soon enough for me though!

This has been a busy time for us, summer always is. He's playing in a baseball tournament today, so i'm gonna drop him off and go shopping.

My sister and her boyfriend seem to be doing a bit better, she's still not moved back home but they're communicating. That's a good sign.

New

ok so trying this out again, not sure how often i'll be posting but i'll give it another go.