How I spent my day off

I hate the Dentist. I had to go today. Let me start by saying I had a bad experience with a dentist about 5-7 years ago and ever since I panick at the dentist. I hadn't gotten my teeth cleaned in years. I had many fillings that needed to be redone. I went today and had over $1,000 in work done and it only cost me $50 thanks to insurance.

anyway, I have a jaw problem where my jaw cracks LOUDLY every time i open my mouth. Something to do with the socket. whatever....I also have a VERY small mouth. Im talking really small. Every dentist comments on it. I had my mouth widened 2 times before I could even get braces. so because i can't open my mouth too wide it's hard, top that off with the Jaw problem and it's not a happy time.

I had my teeth cleaned today, that was good. Then right after I got 4 fillings redone. This is only on the one side of my mouth. ONly the Top right side. I was terrified for half the time and i dont' know why. I was shaking, tears were falling , thank goodness they can't see that with the sunglasses on. I had my Ipod BLASTING music the whole time. That helped a bit. But man am i glad that's over for a while. I have to go back and get ONE done Nov 24th, then I'll go back in January to get 2 more fillings in the bottom of my mouth. I have to space it , Insurance resets at $0 in January.

anyway, that was my day. I really wish i knew why i freak out so much. I mean that dentist years ago was rough but im really suprised i react the way i do now.

That being said, I may consider the Hypnotherapy the one dentist does. I do have to say, despite my freak outs they are very nice there and the dentist that did my fillings today, I didn't even feel her shove the needle in my face!